Meditating Maitreya

I just realised something...
And that quote just reminded me of another "smart" thing I said some time ago at my work
(making my collegues laugh like crazy): 
I need to think.
...This might take a while.

It seems that I'm not so smart as I thought. I send out sublime messages about my state of feeling, considering the things I write here. Yeah, I figured that out by myself (of courseI realise that too). ;-) But sometimes when I want to send out a thought in form of a *sigh*, trying to just be natural and realising the reality as it is (not as I want it to be), it appears to people in a different way than expected.

The sender's message does not always reach the reader in the right way.

But maybe, the sublime message that we spread from within and into the web,
hits another person's heart.
With the result of questions like: Are you really ok?
Maybe the sublime message is the true one?

Maybe I am not. Maybe I am.
I know for one thing that some things in my life are upside down.
And the worries that the uncertainty creates are not to sublime for the web.
You realise as I, that the reason I need to write when the emotions go to far,
is a way of crying out.
A way of dealing with it.
A way of making the reailty real, the only way to move on.
I cannot move on if I'm not sure of the worreis I carry around are real or not.
i need to stop in the motion,
accept the reality as it is,
and let go of whatever I feel.
To let go is the best way of living the reality.
Let go of your desires.
Let go of your emotions.
Let go of your attachments.
That will free you.


I want to direct a prayer and gratitudes
to some friends that really care.
May you be safe,
may you be happy,
may you be healthy,
may you live with ease.

From Buddhist Metta Meditation
(Thank you Vipassana for teaching me Metta)

The actual truth right now - I AM happy (and I was yesturday too after taking a hot bath)
I'm just to spoiled not to realise that some times when I write my blog ;-)